Disappointment

Disappointment is relative.  I am disappointed that I didn’t get what I want, but won’t I be disappointed when I see that what I thought I wanted isn’t really what I was searching for?  Swallowing the notion that willing “good things” to happen in your life brings strife.  Though it is a difficult task, staying focused on the place you are in, giving full attention and energy to this position however low or beneath you, will clear away the clouds of disappointment.  What we want is always somehow tied up into our ability to relax.  All we really want is for life to be easy, to live like other people do.  The truth is….you are the other people.  As you read this, someone is envious of you, where you are in life, or what you have. Yet you still want.  Disappointment is routed in fear.  The idea that maybe I will never reach the place I have spent so much time trying to go. The feeling that all I got is all I will ever have and the fairytale that is the good life only happens to other people.  The truth is the good life you seek is the one you are ignoring.  We are all on a quest to have it easy.  The ones that abandon this quest and embrace the struggle are the ones who are able to laugh in the face of disappointment.  It rarely is what it looks like.  Analyze your fear there-in you will find your weakness.  To be disappointed is to live. There will come a day when disappointment will be no more and the ease of life that you pursued so vigorously will be your reward for living through it all.